Allowed

The best medicine isn’t quite accepted
But it’s the poison for which I’ve elected
To continue breathing like the rest
But to get to keep it will be the real test

It seems I’ve finally found the answer to the demons
The one and only way to really stop the screamin’
If I can have it then I might just have an answer
To contain this horrible, psychological cancer

After looking for the answer in a bottle
And once in the end of a .45’s throttle
I might be able to finally breath the Peace
And catch the other end of a little more release

It all comes down to the demons that you feeding
The ones you give control in the darkest times of needing
It’s never really been about the graces
It’s about the vices and the winners of those races

And just maybe I can finally see some light
It burns enough to hurt me but it might just make things right
Or at least as right as things can ever be
Since the the Peace we knew was taken far away from me

One more taste, but I can’t be left to revel
The world won’t approve of the way I choose to level
With the pain that’s been welling up inside
Just know I left on the high road, I swear to God I tried

Tell me that there’s nothing wrong with the way we make things right
As the world comes undone despite how hard we’ve tried
Because the answer doesn’t feel as wrong as it would seem
But I doubt the world would agree with everything they’re seeing

So I’ll take the trail where it leads despite the costs
It doesn’t really hurt me, as much as people’s thoughts
I’m doing what I need to do to get me through the days
Accept it or reject it, it’s not their place to say

I’m grateful for the answers that I’ve found
And I pray to heaven that I get to keep them around
The peace that it brings me is something quite profound
If it saves my soul, then fuck if it’s allowed

Can There Be A Way

The sun comes up it’s another day
But still the world is dark since we have lost our way
Another dawn but it’s not the same
Without you here with me it’s just a hollow frame

Fear the light and just what it means
It’s just another moment of this misery
Still I try, for your memory
I know it’s what you’d want but it is lost on me

Can there be a way to find
The light we lost as we’re left behind
Can there be a brief respite
Just one more moment with you in our lives

I hear the people and their constant refrain
About how much I’m loved and all you mean to me
I hear their words and it feels obscene
I know they mean the best but it’s hard to see

Take this life and what it means
I’ve had enough of everything it’s taken from me
I open my mouth just to speak your name
But my voice is lost in the tears it brings

Can there be a way to find
The light we lost as we’re left behind
Can there be a brief respite
Just one more moment of you in our lives

How do I live without your love
You got me through the days where it was hard to stay
No more breath as I cry out above
They didn’t have to take you, this is¬†just to much

Now we’re here and the world is cold
Without you here we are left alone
But one day I will see you dear
I’ll hold you again, this I swear

Can there be a way to find
The light we lost as we’re left behind
Can there be a brief respite
Just one more moment of your in our lives

I still have so much to say
Now that youre gone so far away
I have so much to say
And I need you to know
I really just need you to know